Jam of the Day…

Not quite sure who she is, or where she came from, but this song caught my attention. I thought she was Ciara when I first saw the video. So, following in the footsteps of Teacakes and Miss Natalie, here’s my Jam of the Day.

“Energy”

I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
Cuz I put to much energy in him and me
Can’t wait till I get through this phase
Cuz its killing me
To bad we can’t re-write our own history
Such a mystery when hes here with me
It’s hard to believe I’m still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain’t how its supposed to be
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
We gotta re-reverse the chemistry
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Energy, My Energy
Taking all my energy
Energy, My Energy
Taking all of (my energy)

Seems only like yesterday, Not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when u go to me
How can two be as one
We’ve become to divided now
Theres no use hiding from my misery
Such a mystery when hes here with me
It’s hard to believe I’m still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain’t how its supposed to be
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (Oh, Yeah)
We gotta re-reverse the chemistry (We gotta re-)
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Energy, My EnergyTaking all my energy (Energy)
Energy (Energy), My Energy (Energy)
Taking all of
Cause your taking all of my energy
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
We gotta reverse the chemistry
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (Oh)
We gotta reverse the chemistry (Oh, Oh)
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy (Energy)
Energy (Energy), My Energy (Oh)
Taking all my energy (Oh-Oh)
Energy, My Energy (Taking all of me)
Taking all of
Ya killing me
Ya taking all of me yeah, oh
This love is taking all of my energy

In the Business of Cleansing

Today was shaping up to be a very productive day! My husband made breakfast before leaving for work this morning (somebody look at your neighbor and say a breakthrough is coming your way), and I was able to slightly cure my touch of cabin fever when I took my son to the doctor for his two-week check up. The doctor (who by the way is a dear soror of mine) said that the boy looks great! He’s 8lb and 10 oz now!!! To celebrate, I bought myself a coke! I hadn’t had one since the beginning of my pregnancy! (Told you to look at your neighbor and speak that breakthrough into existence)

I got home, got lunch for the kids and myself and put them both down for a nap. Then it hit me… You know, the only way depression can-like a ton a bricks. I looked at the calendar and realized that it was September 9th. It was sixteen years ago today when my father passed. I almost can’t believe how affected I am. I’ve done so much, more than what most people thought I would accomplish, and he’s the one person I would love to share it all with. I have a family and kids I’m sure he would spoil, like only grandfathers can. I’m sure he would be exactly like his dad, Granddaddy always had change in his pockets for the grandkids. Didn’t that change seem like it could buy the world back then? (It probably could until Bush got in office)

Don’t really know how to feel about it all, or how to pull myself out of this funk. Guess it doesn’t help that I have Luther’s song Dance with My Father playing. The title of the picture displayed is Cleansing Tears. I’m going to sleep now.